A Thousand Years Old

nanny24/7

Sat, May 02 2015, 11:55 pm

A Thousand Years Old

I am young they say, just twenty three
With lustrous hair, brown and shiny
They chatter about me
She is the one that looks like she is fourteen
But really she is twenty three

I feel as if I am a thousand years old.
My story I never told
It is a mumble jumble in my brain
After all the tragedies I suffered
I can’t believe I’m still sane

Life has taken me so far
Up rocky mountains
Across stormy seas
So much Pain
So much Love
In between it all
I laughed a lot
And cried a lot
Sometimes I stood so tall and proud
Other times I buried my head in shame
Places, Faces, so many of them I can’t remember
I’ve moved so many times
I am so tired, my bones ache
My face is wrinkled so
Indeed, I am a thousand years old

I am still so young, just twenty three
But as I look in the mirror, I say, “It can’t be!”
I know too much
I think too much
The more I think, the older I become
I am ancient
I am not afraid to die
My life is full
Like a cup poured with whine til the brim
I have much to be proud of
Much I have accomplished
In my short years, of just twenty three

But I want to live almost forever
So I can know another million people, and see another million places
And maybe, as I grow from it all
I can become a million times better of a person
Just like I did until now

With each step I take
I am wiser
With each blow I suffer
I am kinder
With each time I fall
I am more humble still
With each loss I suffer
I am more grateful for what I still have

Look at me -
I look young, you see
But if you look really closely
Deeply into my eyes
You will see a story that’s a thousand years old
It is a story I have never told
Maybe to tell it, I am already too old

But my story tells itself
By the person who I am
For I didn’t become Me automatically
Surely I couldn’t have
People aren’t born as wise as me
Neither as kind

So if you see a glimpse of my heart
Or a glimmer of my mind
You will see Me
And you will know
That I may look like I am twenty three
But really, I am very old
A thousand years...

FranticFrummie

Sun, May 03 2015, 5:26 am

Amazing writing!

I can totally relate. I look in the mirror, and I look so much younger than I am. I think about when I was 19, and going down such a bad road in life, I couldn't even picture myself living to be 30.

I'm about to turn 50, and all the things I've lived though still don't show on my face, even though I feel it in every bone and muscle in my body. I look so untouched, no one ever knows the path it took me to get here. I'm not sure if that's a good or a bad thing.

I recently dyed my hair, and intentionally left a silver streak in the front, as a badge of honor to remind me that I've lived, I've survived, and that I can rock that gray and be fabulous.