Tell me why I shouldn't throw up now.

mame1

Wed, Jul 26 2017, 10:19 am

amother wrote:

Mame1- you clearly never had an eating disorder (baruch Hashem!!) And I'm not going to deprive my kids of their favorite supper because of my issues. I ate an apple and an egg for breakfast, and watermelon and nuts for lunch- so I have plenty of fruit.
Today my kids had whole wheat noodles and cheese. After I exercised I had one cup of it and then stopped. Was still hungry so I melted cheese on spinach instead of more noodles.
I am NOT going to throw up. Repeat. Might do a 10 minute quick exercise before bed.
Real, I don't have Netflix, is there anywhere else I can find it? Can look in my library or online.
Thanks all! Hope to report back that I followed through and did NOT throw up.

No, I never have had an eating disorder BH. And chas v’shalom you should deprive your children- I wasn’t referring to them. I just meant that fruits like watermelon really fill you up and the high h2o content is good for you, especially after a workout. I found it a little confusing why you would go for fried and greasy foods…mystery solved.

SpottedBanana

Wed, Jul 26 2017, 12:47 pm

amother wrote:

Thanks, real.
Saw the trailer on youtube....would be very triggering for me to watch that.
But...I didn't throw up tonight. Yay me?

Yay you! Eating disorders are rarely "cured" like pneumonia, flares of desire are bound to happen so when they do every day you beat them is a huge success! Hooray

Pamela

Wed, Jul 26 2017, 1:03 pm

real wrote:

watch the nextflix movie-to the bone

it was very eye opening for me

I do not believe you should be watching this movie. As a eating disorder specialist, this has been very triggering for many of my ED clients. As a side point, it gives a very biased outlook on ED's. A person does not need to be deathly thin to suffer...it is a illness in the brain no matter the size.

Hatzlacha OP on your quest for better health.

amother

Pearl

Tue, Aug 22 2017, 7:57 pm

I get you, I'm going to share with you a couple of videos, she's helped me so much.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5YGPEEvIW58
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XwSMBNk73Q

amother

Peach

Tue, Aug 22 2017, 10:15 pm

Thanks for the posts. Just saw them.
I will take a look at the YouTube videos. Thanks Pamela for your encouragement.
I'm trying to be healthy. I'm also overweight now (for real). I don't need to be a size 2 on 500 calories again, but I'm trying to lose weight in a healthy way and just BE. But my body is so messed up, my hunger/satiety signals are so messed up. I threw up a few more times since my op, but not many. I'm working on preparing healthy meals and eating them, being active and healthy. And hopefully one day it will become the new norm for me and I won't even think about it.
Thanks all for listening.
As for the heavy girl in the video- just seeing the main character was a trigger. I know you meant well though, thanks.