Poem about ADHD | Imamother

amother

Wed, Jul 03 2019, 10:20 am

by Angela Aguirre

One
I fear that my legacy will be an unfinished poem
Like the ones that fill my notebook
I do not want to look back at my life and see
That it could have been so much more
Than it turned out to be

Two
My life is a series of almosts
I fear that I will never know greatness
That I will not be able to stay around long enough
To even become good enough to be great at anything

Three
I often feel like I do not belong
Like a concert in a library
A red dress at a funeral
I am a magnet for wide-eyed looks
People will not always tell you when your different is showing but
their eyes will
Brows raised in confusion
It is more polite to say "You are one of a kind"
Than to try understanding why
They will say you are unique
Claim variety is the spice of life
Laughed at often and dismiss the moment because
It feels too much like a turtleneck in the summertime
These compliments will always feel
more like insults

Four
I am in a perpetual state of barely getting by
Of trying to catch up
Ironic that someone so fullspeed ahead can so easely get left behind

Five
When people tell me I am amazing
I do not believe them
I smile and give thanks and hope not to be discoverd
I am a fraud
If only they knew that my accomplishments
feel a lot more like accidents
As if the universe sometimes makes mistakes in my favor like
a glitch in the solar system, a data error
Someone somewhere must have spelled my name wrong
I hope no-one notices

Six
The best of intentions with the worst execution
I am what happens when a brilliant idea meets a terrible mistake

Seven
My life must look a lot like the fourth of july
Upon arrival I light the sky bright loud and temporary
I am a beautifull explosion but
only for a moment
A shortlived spectacle
A pyrotechnic poet
I have always wished I were more fireplace
than firework

Eight
I have a love-hate relationship with the pillbottle
I am now at 60mg of Adderall a day
When I don't take it I feel useless
But when I do the dry mouth plagues me
And I am less myself
But I guess that is a good thing
People say they see the difference
That I am more pleasant and agreeable
Sometimes I wonder if I am medicated
to make everyone else's live easier

Nine
I wish my life were easier
Wish I wasn't such a problem
Such a series of unfortunate events
There are only so many apologies you get
until "I'm sorry" is no longer enough

Zehava

Wed, Jul 03 2019, 11:28 am

Do you feel like this? Because here’s one about my child.
They say
You are restless
Scattered
Disrespectful
Inappropriate
That you don’t listen
Don’t focus
Can’t control
Your impulses

They throw around words
Letters
Issues
They want
You fixed
So you can fit
Their mold
So you’ll be easy
Agreeable

I say
You are sweet
Loving
Responsible
Energetic
Curious
Creative
Free-spirited

I say
You have the most beautiful sparkle
In your eyes
In your soul
You are perfect
Just the way you are

amother

Wed, Jul 03 2019, 12:27 pm

Zahava,
I love it!

Here's one about my child

Since before you were born
Your energy was boundless
They said those active inside
Are the calmest once out
They were wrong

They didn't know
How much motion you needed
In order to stay calm
How many nights of pacing, of singing
I forgot the singing
Already then-
Your gift was emerging

You love to sing and dance
How you sing! How you dance!
The room lights up
With your power
Your strength
Your energy.

You take so much patience
So so much patience
and you give so much more
You are kind
So kind
That you don't understand when people aren't

And last year
When you were up on that stage
Belting it out beautifully
Beaming
And singing
And capturing the hearts
Of every person in that audience
I wished
That every teacher
You ever have
Will see that performance
Before they meet you
See your eyes sparkle
See you in your element
In an environment
Where you are organically successful
Let them see
How when your energy
Has an appropriate outlet
You can shine

Let them help you
Shine
Let them see
Your shine

Oh Hashem!
Please let them build him
Not break him.
He's my shining soul
Who can change the world one day
Let that shine last
Please