"Before I Was A Mom"

happyone

Sun, Jan 08 2006, 2:03 pm

Before I Was A Mom

Before I was a Mom...
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom...
I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was Mom...
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to lullabies.

Before I was a Mom...
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom...
I had never been puked on
Pooped on
Spit on
Chewed on
Peed on
Or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom...
I had complete control of my mind
My thoughts
My body
And my time.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom...
I never held down a screaming child
So that doctors could do tests
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom...
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
Could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom...
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom...
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth
The joy
The love
The heartache
The wonderful fulfillment
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much
...before I was a Mom.