Went to a wedding tonight...

amother

Thu, Sep 06 2007, 4:11 pm

Not sure where to put this.

Went to a wedding tonight. Just got me thinking. I was there with my little baby. Just got me thinking about life. This little innocent kid. Then I see the kallah... how her life is completely changing as we sat there... I know for myself when I got married I of course knew my life was changing but it is so different looking at it from hindsight. What a special night it is. Something like never before or since. I wish I could replay that day.

Then I started thinking - she is chabad. I am not and dont think I will ever be, though I find many chabad people to be so aidel and unique. With this specific family there is just a feeling of kedusha with some of them. Just something special. And I realized I think I just lessen the kedusha in ours. I dont have the spark. I dont have so much emunah or even Judaic knowledge. I dont know how to get it either. First you need the knowledge, then you create the avira. And I as the wife/mother am probably the main one responsible. I was happy to feel the spark again tonight but depressed that I cant seem to get there myself.

mumoo

Thu, Sep 06 2007, 4:49 pm

Start talking to Gd. Having a relationship with Hashem is an excellent way to connect to that kedusha you want. Talk to Him, believe that He is the only reason you are here, learn what He wants and strive to do it.

The knowledge that Hashem makes everything happen for a reason is what lets us be satisfied with what we have. The knowledge that everything he does is for good, lets us relax and accept even the trying times.

A good place to start learning is Pirkei Avos (even the junior Artscroll with the pictures).

Btw, when your children see you talking to Hashem (davening or just conversing) they will also internalize how important keeping that connection is.