My journey | Imamother

amother

Sun, Dec 26 2021, 2:27 pm

I stand at the door,
My hand trembling
I am reluctant and afraid,
To take the move.

I so desperately wanna go,
To the place that’s meant for me.
I know I will find peace,
I’ll never wanna leave.

I find comfort at home,
I don’t wanna try.
The change is so big
I stand back.

I wanna curl up
And stay where I am,
I am not ready
To face something else.

The unknown frights me,
It looks so unfamiliar.
The newness and luster
Do not tempt me.

Even with my pain
In my current state.
I find comfort
And predictability.
I know it’s time to go,
I know I’m ready.
I’m terrified of the push,
I’m as hesitant as can be.

The place I’m at,
I know I’ve grown out.
I’m taller and better,
I’m fully equipped.

I got the tools,
I am prepared.
Everything is arranged,
Nothing will hold me back.

The biggest proof of ripeness,
is the big FEAR,
If he is looming,
Its time to face him.

He only shows his colors,
When he knows I might combat,
But he doesn’t know that
I have better ways.

Ill take it with me on my way,
I won’t push it away.
Ill confront it and live it,
I will not fight it back.
Ill invite him on my journey,
And show him all around.
Ill deal with him as needed,
Whenever he wants.

As I hold his hand,
And get ready to go,
I stand taller and calmer,
I know my ways.

There is someone calling
From behind me.
The voice sounds so sweet,
So reassuring and deep.

He is happiness and Emunah,
In one being combined.
He wants to hold my other hand,
Come along on the ride.

He doesn’t flinch when it sees,
Who’s on my other side.
He is ready to share me,
Make friends on the drive.

I don’t think twice,
And I grab him as well,
His grip is tight and oh so relieving,
Oh, I am so grateful.
With a prayer and some humbleness,
I will forge ahead.
Holding on to both my companions,
I know I will do well!

With pride and faith,
I take the leap.
My walk feels stable,
I can do it!