They tell me... | Imamother

amother

Tue, Aug 27 2013, 1:33 pm

I found this poem touching and wanted to share.

They tell me..
by Chaim Kwass

They tell me, that my soul is in pain.
but I do not feel it.

They tell me, that I am crying out.
but I do not hear it.

They tell me, 'I saw you at Sinai."
but I do not remember Sinai.

they tell me of Toras h-shem, to show me "light".
but all I see is "darkness".

They tell me of "absolute truths".
but all I have are absolute doubts.

They tell me how hakaras hatov is such a wonderful thing.
but my life, has been full of pain.

They tell me to "take the plunge".
but I am afraid of water.

They tell me to come for a friday night meal.
but I always seem to have an excuse.

They tell me they love me.
And I know they do.

my parents told me they wanted to "show me the path of Torah".
but they screamed at me, every time I did wrong.

my friends and I have such fun when we rebel.
but I know, there must be more to life.

I feel how life has turned out so aweful.
but I do not return.

They tell me not to fear "even when a sword is near your throat".
but I feel the blood is already dripping out.

Each day there is less to be thankful for.
each day I go farther away.
each day I am more confused.

they tell me I can pray in my own words.
and I think I actually will.

"H-shem I am tired of living this way
could you please save me from the depths of sin,
Before, it is too late?"