I'm losing it ... | Imamother

greenfire

Thu, Jan 08 2009, 8:58 am

I can't even wake up sane anymore - nobody lets me sleep ... Crying

I've had to referee sibling insanity/rivalry fights at 3 am ... listen to asthma attacks in my bed at 4:30 am change her to other dd's room at 5 am - wake up to a un-sleep walker at 6 am and make breakfast before the fast at 6:15 ... then in the dead of sleep be woken up at 9:30 am which is unheard of for me ... to realize I cannot move - then try to start my car and miss a pulmonologist appt cause it wouldn't ... that was the other night/day

last night I woke up to a slamming door ... went to check up on dd on the 3rd floor - only to find a male body in her stead - oh it's sonny boy who usually sleeps by his dad but was sleeping on the first floor with cuzin luzzie that somehow landed in cleveland - okay so where is luz What

I find him on the 1st floor in a room w/o a heater freezing shock

... great so listen to noise for an hour or so from 2 up kids - blah blah blah only to realize the guy is nutso and I went back to him and put my down blanket on him ... who sits in the cold for hours ?!?!?!

then this morning - oh D A M N it is morning Sunny

?!?!?! I couldn't wake up but drag myself outta bed to find dd2 folding towels (NO it's not a good thing) in pjs while her bus is coming any second - the one she didn't go on for 2 days meaning never made it to school - grrrrrrrrrrr ... okay what do I say - how about leave the towels and get dressed - good idea right .... wrong - she says to me it's none of my business so I'm thinking they're gonna throw her out of school like "don't you wanna graduate you're almost there" ... she ignores me ... bus BEEPS so I'm ready to say go - but lo & behold she gets on in her pj's ... bye bye birdie ...

I'm losing it ... couldn't find the coffee between all this - so I started throwing plastic containers that dd collects out of the cabinet ... grrrrrrrrr Banging head

D A M N is it morning again Exploding anger

oh and it snowed again Pale

oh and the radio is on Music

I asked dd why the music didn't go off after the hour alarm it usually stays on for - she said I turned it on ... how come I don't remember Scratching Head